I've been thinking about time, and honestly, I'm always thinking about time. Time and I have always had a certain relationship, unfortunately for me, it isn't a health one. I'm a person that is constantly looking at the clock. Just watching my day move by, wishing I could be using my time more wisely. I want to be doing things I really enjoy and love, but day after day I find myself doing the same things. Insert obvious quote below.


Could it be I'm the only one dealing with this? I doubt it. This made me start thinking about what is really stopping me for "living my life." It began with me walking through a typical day, and what I discovered was shocking. I was going through my day without actually engaging with anything, I have switched my mind and body to autopilot. 

Let me see if I can explain what I mean by autopilot. It means I get up every morning at the same time, eat the same things, travel the same route to work. I work on the same projects, listen to the same music and podcasts, travel the same route home, and watch the same shows and head to bed at the same time. Yes, this is a routine, but when does a routine become living mindlessly? 

I have always thought this is what being an adult is like. You work and do the same things to achieve the big house, the perfect husband, the goofy children, the perfect career. However, I've come to the conclusion I'm not that type of person. Yes, I want a successful career and a nice place to live, but my goals probably aren't the typical American dream. 

What does this mean for me? I'm not sure yet, but I'm going to set some goals. First being, don't work to just survive, work to really live. Ever since going on a life changing trip to Europe after college, I have dreamed of going back. I want to travel to places that are beautiful and astounding with people and cultures different from my own. People say traveling broadens the mind, and I'm beginning to understand that saying.

That being said, I reached out to an art exhibit in New York a month ago and was excepted as an artist to be shown for one night on December 20th. One of my life long dreams is coming true. I'm actually going to go to New York, and around Christmas no less! I'm honored and excited to have this opportunity to show my work in one of the biggest art hubs in the country. Honestly, I'm still in shock. I'll share more news as I learn more about the coming event!

Let me ask you this. What do you do to keep yourself engaged? How do you keep your days from running together? How do you stop the autopilot?